Self Reflection...so the Journey Begins

Self Reflection...the journey begins

After the passing of my father on the 1^st December 2020, it really gave me the drive to dig deep and go within. I knew it was not going to be easy, let’s face it who wants to look into their demon’s eye to eye especially when I could barely do that with myself on any given day.

I was in my early fifties, having to daily constantly continue to resist the urge to retreat within myself or to retract from the world whenever someone would treat me poorly. I didn’t mind my own company but at times it could get very lonely and then the thoughts would kick in. What is wrong with you? There must be something wrong with you? You’re not normal! The more my head spoke to me the duller my light would shine. What I wasn’t seeing I was self-sabotaging and I was literally my own worst enemy. Of course, I wasn’t taking into consideration the Law of Attraction either – what you put out to the Universe is what you get in return. So became the vicious circle of low vibrational, energy stealing beings constantly knocking on my door and entering my life only to eventually turn my world upside down and trigger me to retract once again. I had become a hamster on a hamster wheel of life and I could see no way of getting off.

As I quietly sat in my bedroom, I realised I could no longer live in this darkness. It was suffocating me and making me ill on a regular basis. I could feel my body slowly breaking down and I could feel my life shortening up. Things were serious so it was time to take some serious action. “Where should I start?” I didn’t know where the pain had started or ended. All I could think was to start at the beginning, work through my life and see where this was all coming from. As we know you can’t fix a problem unless you know what the cause is, so there was the start of my story